August 24, 2010

Thinking Many Deep Thoughts

Life has been very full this summer with many blessings as well as concerns.  The concerns are mostly family related and have been causing me increased pressure both emotionally and spiritually.  I've been feeling as though many of the resentments and much of the anger resulting from them is coming home to roost and it's not a pretty picture.  I've been feeling quite 'on edge' and ready to cry and/or get angry at the drop of a hat.  

Many of these feelings have been stuffed down now for years and eventually I guess they begin coming to the surface more than we'd like in this life.  I know mine have and in a way it's a good thing since I am being forced to deal with these issues or be trodden underfoot.  It's not an easy task nor is it one to be taken lightly because there's no way around all of this.......there's only one way and that is 'through' them, which doesn't make for peace of mind, nor inner ease.  

However, I feel as though Our Lord is calling me to take this journey and assuring me at the same time, that He will be by my side all the way so that I should 'Fear not, for I am with you even to the end of the world'.  That will be my fortress and my consolation so please, if you're reading this blog, pray for me as I journey into unknown and very deep waters.